Building Masks…

I often wonder who else builds masks for themselves? Not masks as in halloween masks of any such design, but human masks. One for when your sad or one for when your angry or bored or caring or even depressed. I will open up to all of you who read my blog, I have built many masks over my life. Sometimes I feel I could be the best mask builder on the earth. People know me as the happy, funny, cheerful guy who has a nice word for everybody, the latter is true I do have good words to say to everybody and I mean them when I say them. I love people and I think that is a true gift, but the others are not always true. That is when my masks come on. I have been through very hard times in my life and possibly to my detriment I have built many masks, because masks aren’t always the best path for you. Masks help you keep everything in and that can be very damaging, damaging to you and damaging to the people and the relationships you are in. I have learned that first hand and it is not fun! I have decided to through away my masks and to get real, now like a recovering drug addict it won’t be easy but damn it will feel good at the end. Leave it all on the table and let people take it as they may, besides what do you have to lose. I need to be comfortable with myself before I can let other people get comfortable with me, so shall we get comfortable. I THINK SO! I want the best for all of you and this is the start, go tell that person that you love them and want them “take off the mask of indifference”! Go tell that person that you need a hug and a shoulder to cry on “take off that mask of happiness”! Go tell that person that you don’t deserve to be treated that way “take off that mask of acceptance”! Go out and get real, and while your at it help someone else get real along with you. They will thank you at the end! Love you all!

Missing Cali :-(

Have I said how much I miss California lately! Their are many reasons I do miss it, my life would be quite different right now if I was still there. The reason I am thinking about it right now, SNOW!!!!! Don’t get me wrong I love snow but only if I can head down the slopes with a snowboard strapped to my feet in it, can’t do much with it in St. Louis other then shovel it. Not to mention after 7 years of having an SUV I just got a little sports car, smart thinking Chad. I’m off to make a snow angel and to try and avoid not eating the yellow snow, I heard its bad stuff.

Cheerio!

My computer has the sniffles…

I am sitting in the Apple store right now because my laptop is sick. Hopefully it isn’t the flu or something terminal! I trust the Mac Genius bar to fix any problem I have though and that is why I love Apple.